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-I know-without being arrogant i could be in a better position than i am now without said problems-i'm 28 soon and have been lulled into a comfort zone-what are the options-find a job which might make me even more unhappy-go back into education with potential debt/chance i'll drop out.
Yes it's part chemical inbalance (eating the right foods, abstinence from self medication etc helps) but social isolation, lack of companionship etc doesn't. Cathartic things like music production are key-it's release of frustration and expression-i'd be lost really without it. Anyone relate? How do I become more zen ?
ligotti wrote: “This is the great lesson the depressive learns: Nothing in the world is inherently compelling. Whatever may be really “out there” cannot project itself as an affective experience. It is all a vacuous affair with only a chemical prestige. Nothing is either good or bad, desirable or undesirable, or anything else except that it is made so by laboratories inside us producing the emotions on which we live. And to live on our emotions is to live arbitrarily, inaccurately—imparting meaning to what has none of its own. Yet what other way is there to live? Without the ever-clanking machinery of emotion, everything would come to a standstill. There would be nothing to do, nowhere to go, nothing to be, and no one to know. The alternatives are clear: to live falsely as pawns of affect, or to live factually as depressives, or as individuals who know what is known to the depressive. How advantageous that we are not coerced into choosing one or the other, neither choice being excellent. One look at human existence is proof enough that our species will not be released from the stranglehold of emotionalism that anchors it to hallucinations. That may be no way to live, but to opt for depression would be to opt out of existence as we consciously know it.”
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i guess it must of been an actual period of depression and not just a bad comedown
either way it was fucking bleak. i feel so sorry for anyone who has dealt with that their whole life
DiegoSapiens wrote:thats so industrial
soronery wrote:New low
om_unit wrote: wtf is juke?
seems like it's just generally beneficial for your mental health if you're having a severe breakdown, and honestly probably even if you're not having a severe breakdown, but most people wouldn't want to go through that unless they were
Phigure wrote:a life permanently spent off road
not the life for me
my last major withdrawal was so severe it produced what I later found out to be ptsd in me. it lasted five years, every thought or feeling was infected with the memory of that hell. that combined with constant anxiety had me go on strong antipsychotics but 6 months later whenb I come off em I still had the memory of withdrawals blighting my thought processing. one day I went picking and picked a few thousand. when I got back I collected all the big juicy ones and coocked them on the stove stuck them in a big tankard mixed with coffee and necked it. monstrous, the trip was so intense started by a trip to the bog to piss and the first time in my laugh my dick didnt feel my own. seen people as various degrees of purple lizards, shit went like a van gogh painting at one point with big brush strokes. I can remember thinking I was gonna lose it at one point so went into a room with mindscape playing and sorta stomp danced for my life, shit was fucked. I also had a thought when in a kitchen with a bunch of people that: we were on a spaceship and we were goinbg off to die but that was okay cos we were all happy cos we where the genetics that had to perish for the species top survive and those genetics were the act of being seperately conscious and aware of the self and that that ship once gone to its death wouyld leave left behind the perfect formula for the planet._ronzlo_ wrote:All of the research being done recently on psilocybin therapy for anxiety, PTSD, and depression is mighty interesting though. I keep hearing (from the researchers) that its action is much more profound than most synthetic drugs for many patients.
basically after all that I didnt remember withdrawals like I once did. ptsd cured by shrooms
garethom wrote:weed ice cream
seroxat?nobody wrote:ive had a few 'episodes' and some of the meds i was given made my life 10 times worse, this stuff, x or z something, an SSRI, fuck, that made my life misery til i stopped, then i had withdrawal, im sure they help some people but they made me want to kill myself (lol)
that's a huge mix in your sig. big up.thekuku wrote:I've been diagnosed with depression and chose to shell out for the psychodynamic therapy, an hour per week for a year and a half. It has helped me immensely, much more than the meds I think.
SoundcloudAxeD wrote:I dunno, there's some thoroughly unemployed people on this forum.
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