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amykamala · Post by **amykamala** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 3:50 am

I just woke up. (again)

Its 7:34 pm here.

Valentines day evening. I don't have a valentine (well, my pets... and I'd opt to say i'm my own valentine), in fact my best friend was supposed to come over for dinner and just flaked on me. kinna bums me out but oh well. don't wanna spend my energy being bummed out right now.
I am feeling a little bit better then I have been lately. There is a possibility of me seeing a different doctor sooner through my job, as soon as next week. They can hook me up with a specialist seeing as its the Med Center n all, that is if they choose to help me and not just turn me away because I have a disease most likely, and am not workers comp (like they did last time I went there for help) .
Also, I should have read more carefully the discharge forms from the hospital, they may have actually figured out whats wrong with me. (Ruptured disk in the spinal chord) and I got an email from my aunt who has arranged for me to see a doctor for free (her ex husband, my cousins dad) and since he is personally invested in me and known me my entire life, and a very good doctor, he may help me as well. I really hope so. this illness/situation makes me extremely depressed. Plus, earlier today I couldn't feel my hands at all, but just now I was wresting with the pup and he nipped my hand and it actually hurt! Normally this would be displeasing but this time around made me feel very relieved.

I think things are looking up for me post-nap because pre-nap i told myself that I have to be more nurturing and attentive to my condition, not just succumb to it but very much try and help it. It is hard to DO anything other then rest because i'm sooo low energy, and trying to trudge through school, and when i do things, anything, any and every activity, my condition worsens, but regardless i have to treat myself as if i were someone i love who needs to be taken care of, and to tell my body to heal... and to give it whatever it needs to heal energetically wise. And not be depressed baout it, because that doesn't help.

Donno if anyone cares on here but you all seem very kind and intelligent, seems some nice ppl have taken an interest. I do appreciate that. It is nice to know that there are people out there who can be loving without having ever even met me, as well people who love me who know me well. A lot of people I love too

. That is a nice thought for this corporate holiday that is supposed to be about love at its core.

kind of an earful, or an eyeful rather.

cliffs : i feel a bit better

happy valentines evening

nesslei · Post by **nesslei** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 3:59 am

amykamala wrote: happy valentines evening

to you too darlin. so glad you are feeling better. i hope you continue to feel so. all power to ya!

xVx

vonboyage · Post by **vonboyage** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 4:01 am

Im glad things look much brighter, you deserve some good news..
Typin on PS3, so has to be brief unfortunately..

I'll have a write-up later

P.S- Be my e-valentine!

*grand* · Post by ***grand*** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 4:02 am

browsing.. thinking about what i need to do in a few hours. Calculating the probability of those said things happening.

vonboyage · Post by **vonboyage** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 4:03 am

vonboyage · Post by **vonboyage** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 4:03 am

double

vonboyage · Post by **vonboyage** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 4:03 am

TRIPLE!

PS3 browser FTL

SMH

*grand* · Post by ***grand*** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 4:04 am

lol.. wtf you still doing up

vonboyage · Post by **vonboyage** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 4:06 am

lurkin lol... i messaged u on msn, still

*grand* · Post by ***grand*** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 4:07 am

i saw that.. i came home just after that.. but you was offline init.

vonboyage · Post by **vonboyage** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 4:09 am

Skeen... go Corsica?

*grand* · Post by ***grand*** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 4:10 am

yeah i did.. wasn't all that though.. just been wanting to come home and get on logic.

vonboyage · Post by **vonboyage** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 4:13 am

Go to bed rudeboy

Ur no good to me mashup n tired 2moro, lol

nesslei · Post by **nesslei** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 4:14 am

Vonboyage wrote:lurkin lol... i messaged u on msn, still

and not me, meh

*grand* · Post by ***grand*** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 4:15 am

famo i been up from 5.30..
seriously not mangled.. just not there anymore... part of me is on vacation.. i think i am going to have it that way for a while still.

andreamia · Post by **andreamia** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 4:18 am

drinking v8 splash and goose, dressed up, on the way out (on a work night)

vonboyage · Post by **vonboyage** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 4:18 am

nesslei wrote:
Vonboyage wrote:lurkin lol... i messaged u on msn, still
and not me, meh

Lol, i messaged u on AIM.. so dont even go there..

Gave me pure AIR aswell...so very cold

vonboyage · Post by **vonboyage** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 4:20 am

*Grand* wrote:famo i been up from 5.30..
seriously not mangled.. just not there anymore... part of me is on vacation.. i think i am going to have it that way for a while still.

U do too many late nights..

Methinks you need the sex of a good woman, to put them muscles to sleep

nesslei · Post by **nesslei** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 4:24 am

Vonboyage wrote:
nesslei wrote:
Vonboyage wrote:lurkin lol... i messaged u on msn, still
and not me, meh

Lol, i messaged u on AIM.. so dont even go there..

Gave me pure AIR aswell...so very cold

what iz you on?
no no no... this aim express thing SUX (ask grandal)

amykamala · Post by **amykamala** » Fri Feb 15, 2008 4:25 am

nesslei wrote:so glad you are feeling better. i hope you continue to feel so. all power to ya!

Vonboyage wrote:Im glad things look much brighter, you deserve some good news..

P.S- Be my e-valentine!

Thank you guys.

I very much value your support and loves and positivity. (sap)

Von of course i'll be your e-v-tine

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