depression and the artistic mind

[Soiree]

I've got Bi-Polar, and I wouldn't trade it for all the tea in london.
I love it. It makes me who I am, Dubstep is how I cope with manic depression.
Dubstep is medicine for the mania and the depression, there are sounds in Dubstep that lend to both sides of the coin.

I'm curious to know if anyone else got Bi-polar from substance abuse.
In my most sever manic episode, I was totally lost in the illusion I created "channeling aliens through Spaceape lyrics"
It's OK, after they locked me up the voices got louder, now I play them on loud sound systems for the whole world to know.

to rupture a structure, Imma make this thing corrupt, ya, testament I say to the sprit of the culture...
there's an abstract black hole laughing after you creating biological patterns more mystical than some...

It's really about seeing your condition as an attribute rather than some kind of inability.

manic
depression

I remember reciting the lyrics to correction during my stay at the correctional facility.

[wobbles]

im trying to cold turkey caffeine right now and i want to stab everything

[Pistonsbeneath]

btw i would highly advise laying off caffeine

it makes me highly anxious i have realised and has even at worst led to panic attacks

[das_raunchy]

thats one way to look at it, but i think you should nip that depression in the bud.

[wobbles]

i know thats why im done with it

[Xianniax]

The good thing about Bad Phases is that it goes away......

[Genevieve]

I'm bipolar and extremely creative but when I'm depressed I'm paralyzed and I start working on things that I'll never finish and when I'm manic, I don't do creative stuff because I'd rather party and I convince myself that I'll get to making the greatest music in the world 'later', unless my mind is racing and the only thing that can soothe me is making insane music.

I've got Bi-Polar, and I wouldn't trade it for all the tea in london.
I love it. It makes me who I am, Dubstep is how I cope with manic depression.
Dubstep is medicine for the mania and the depression, there are sounds in Dubstep that lend to both sides of the coin.

I'm curious to know if anyone else got Bi-polar from substance abuse.

Well, you're "born" with it and stress can trigger the innitial mania or depression. My first mania was after partying for a week and making new friends. My second one was after my first MDMA experience and some alcohol fueled sex. A few days later I got a psychotic episode, followed by mania for like 2 months.

[isiahfire]

Get busy. Busy busy busy, it's the only thing that helps me. Walking, working, doing all prevent that horrible slide into the void. Listlessness and lethargy make it easier to abstain and stay in that bubble but break out and go outside. Good luck.

[jaydot]

I'm also bipolar, slowly but surely losing the battle too.

[Eat Bass]

what is it like to be bipolar? i think my mom is a little due to her days of depression and then really happy days but she can always get very angry in an instant. or maybe thats just cuz shes a girl idk haha.

anyways, im usually a fairly stable person. i mean i have my ups and downs but for the most part i am and try to remain level headed on my outlook of life.

but like the other day i was mad hyper with my friends. i was beatboxing drum and bass like crazy fast bobbing my head like a tnuc lol (granted this time i did drink a big red bull) but i have felt kinda hyper before like that just randomly. and then sometimes i notice i just want my alone time and to stay in. just like to be anti social like once or twice a week and play video games etc. thats about the extreme of my feelings. like i said im usually pretty level but does that sound like im bipolar to those of you who have bipolar disorder? or am i just over analyzing the situation and a "normal" person sometimes is a tad hyper sometimes and just wanting to be alone another day.

also id like to note that it doesnt rly effect my life. i dont like fly off the handle one day and run around skipping the next. i work and go to school and have no issues. oh and i did kind of self diagnose myself with slight OCD which has actually gotten better since i was a little kid (when i was younger i was hugely meticulous and had to have all my clothes out and folded the night before and a stain on my shirt would ruin my entire day, now im not like that but i am still a tad meticulous in how i like things done and do keep things night but im not obsessive over it like i used to be, so i believe i have very mild OCD). i sometimes have racing thoughts and anxiety which i believe to be more a symptom of OCD. but reading about bipolar just made me scared to think i could have that too.

[_v_]

I have a dog, my first pet.

Also I find it good to have something you work at that gives you a pleasing outcome, whatever that might be.

For example im growing tomato plants from seeds, they are growing well...

Kinda simple, I know but its good for me, think being out in the garden a bit helps 2...


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and as for artistic minds and depression, I do think theres a link,

great art comes from depression, take Billy Corgan for example, hes happy now and makes shit music...

could very well be something in that...

[JBoy]

I dont ever think ive been properly depressed but recently after being made redundant twice, things did seem a little low for me. I find it helps to appreciate the positives in your life rather than just seeing the negatives. Also think about about the millions out there that are truly suffering and that made me feel a lot better.

[zerbaman]

Also think about about the millions out there that are truly suffering and that made me feel a lot better.

Not intending to bag on you, but that last line sounded so evil

[Pedro Sánchez]

Also think about about the millions out there that are truly suffering and that made me feel a lot better.

He's right, I know depression is relative and all but perspective is key and knowing that you have the means to get yourself out of it and honestly you need others to help you, you cannot break out of the cycle alone, new surroundings also help immensely.

[butter_man]

The world is bi polar why shouldnt you be

[JBoy]

Its so easy to be depressed nowadays, especially with the way things are. I mean loads of people finish uni expecting the world and end up with nothing, losing your job is hard enough and trying to find a new one is even harder. I think you have to look at things in perspective sometimes, when you see it that way things could be so much worse.

[jameshk]

The world is bi polar why shouldnt you be

Sig'd. You sir are a genious.

[wobbles]

bi polar pride

[Pistonsbeneath]

[therapist]

I know I shouldn't read too much into internet talk, but I'm always kind of dubious of people that are so open about (apparently) being depressed, bi-polar or whatever. Maybe this is just a place you can vent and be honest, the hardest thing I've found (and never managed) is to talk to anyone about these things, or admit the things you think.

The "think about the people who are truly suffering" thing is something I've heard before, but it's strange one. When your life is actually not bad, you have family, friends, money etc. but you still don't want it, it just makes you feel even worse that there are people who would kill for your situation.

I'm not sure why so much of that that was written in 2nd person.