Post Your Random Thoughts Thread!

[Phigure]

what's that tune when a guy at the beginning is laughing and says 'stop it'? it has cowbells in it. loefah played it on last week's show.

animal youth club = redlight (= conqueror)
that sample is xzibit btw

also, it's gonna be backed with this one:


you should check out redlight's rinse fm show some time, tons of amazing tracks

[antipode]

Ever get rly depressed and angry for no reason

yes, frequently

depression is a right cunt

Big up my depression crew

thisssssss

life isnt supposed to be a constant battle with yourself is it?
at least I didnt think it was

10ccs of black books and tomato soup. stat.

[Static D0gma]

I think about my dreams alot, and they're usually the most interesting thing I think about, besides music.

Anyway, I had a wierd dream a few days ago.

I was a mannequin (not the normal ones, those ones with two sets of legs and a torso from SILENT HILL), and I was in a bed in a rusty room, it looked like an old Hospital room, but it was all rusted and the lights flickered frequently.

The only other thing in the room at first, besides me, was a dead nurse who was stabbed to the wall with a huge spear, the blood flowing from her never seemed to stop. For some reason, it felt like I was in great pain, but I couldn't hear anything. (probably because the mannequins do have heads, or ears.)

At one point, I looked down at myself, I noticed that my belly was really bloated. I was pregnant.

Suddenly, the lights blew out, they would flash on every few minutes. Everytime it did, I could see a figure moving, it was a huge figure. After a few times of the lights flashing on, they stopped for what seemed like forever, until the just turned back on. The figure was standing in front of my bed. It just stood their with that big Pyramid Head, and another big spear in it's hand. The pain increased.

It continued to just stand there until I could notice the door opening. Another figure walked in. It was identical to the one in front of me, but it had a giant butcher knife instead of a spear. The one with the spear took a defensive stance, after a few seconds, it leaped at the one with the butcher knife. The lights went out again.

When they came back on, the Pyramid Head with the spear was dead, and the one with the butcher knife stood in front of me.

I'm not going to type the rest of the dream, because it gets all fucked-up XXX.

[Shum]

shopping for books.

edit: big up Amazon wish lists.

[jameshk]

I think about my dreams alot, and they're usually the most interesting thing I think about, besides music.

Anyway, I had a wierd dream a few days ago.

I was a mannequin (not the normal ones, those ones with two sets of legs and a torso from SILENT HILL), and I was in a bed in a rusty room, it looked like an old Hospital room, but it was all rusted and the lights flickered frequently.

The only other thing in the room at first, besides me, was a dead nurse who was stabbed to the wall with a huge spear, the blood flowing from her never seemed to stop. For some reason, it felt like I was in great pain, but I couldn't hear anything. (probably because the mannequins do have heads, or ears.)

At one point, I looked down at myself, I noticed that my belly was really bloated. I was pregnant.

Suddenly, the lights blew out, they would flash on every few minutes. Everytime it did, I could see a figure moving, it was a huge figure. After a few times of the lights flashing on, they stopped for what seemed like forever, until the just turned back on. The figure was standing in front of my bed. It just stood their with that big Pyramid Head, and another big spear in it's hand. The pain increased.

It continued to just stand there until I could notice the door opening. Another figure walked in. It was identical to the one in front of me, but it had a giant butcher knife instead of a spear. The one with the spear took a defensive stance, after a few seconds, it leaped at the one with the butcher knife. The lights went out again.

When they came back on, the Pyramid Head with the spear was dead, and the one with the butcher knife stood in front of me.

I'm not going to type the rest of the dream, because it gets all fucked-up XXX.

.. im gona have nightmares now

[sigbowls]

i had a dream a crazy guy would smear poop on the railing and poop everywhere he was ahead of everyone going down the stairs, then he said get off here i was like no it doesn't bother me, he said it at the next point then i had to then i fought him.

[Neptune]

what's that tune when a guy at the beginning is laughing and says 'stop it'? it has cowbells in it. loefah played it on last week's show.

animal youth club = redlight (= conqueror)
that sample is xzibit btw

also, it's gonna be backed with this one:


you should check out redlight's rinse fm show some time, tons of amazing tracks

Ahhh yes Phigure, you absolute don!

[pandabear]

Ever get rly depressed and angry for no reason

yes, frequently

depression is a right cunt

Big up my depression crew

don't worry about it. Depression is a natural emotion, we all go through it at some point. The fact that you can reconise that it is depression for no reason will help you work through it. without it, you wouldn't know what happiness is.

I try to remember happiness is just a state of mind... although it's usually done subconsciously, you can actually choose whether to be happy or sad, positive or negative... especially if you can't work out what you're down about. I'm only guaranteed to get one shot at this experience... so I'm going to try and make sure all the bits I have control over are as positive as possible.

Easier said than done sometimes, of course... life can be a right cuntsore. Existence is pain. Pain is beauty. Beauty is happiness.

a wise man once said, life means suffering

hmmm

Totally missed these posts.

Thanks everyone! I'm mostly detached and though I get the blues, it weren't as bad, but BF is dipping low. I'm sure I'm partly the stressor, whether I like it or not; whether I/he can help it or not. I'm trying my best to give him space and not to trigger anything. It's inevitable, but I'm confident he'll get through this. I should read up on the thread more, I think someone made one. I feel stupid because as a nurse you'd think I know what to do. I'm ashamed to say I don't mainly because of the emotional attachment. One of my nurse cohorts told me I helped her go through nursing school and depression but I can't seem to use the same words with him. I just want to shut up so I don't trigger any stress, at the same time I can't cos I'm having separation anxiety (which I think I'm doing a good job controlling it now). He's such a good man; worth going through struggles and happy times. I never understood why often they want the other person to escape. Why not let them stay and go through it with them? Humans can be conditioned. Repetitive negative stress can be learned and tolerated in time and as long as you know how to recharge yourself. I'm sure it's been studied before. I can probably even find a graph on it. At least to me it makes sense. It doesn't make sense to let someone go, find another one, and go through it again. Someone has to accept your demons not just your facade. I think I've opened my mouth too long. Have a lovely day everyone.

[Sexual_Chocolate]

annoying that you can never find a dealer when you actually need to score, yet theyre always in your face when you dont need it

[finji]

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[Sonika]

Just saw excision in the list of online users - sort of interesting. I wonder how artists like excision and Datsik feel - I mean, they were listening to it back in 05/06 ish, so back when it was mainly underground and hadn't been diluted with bro, and yet now they're making definitively brostep tunes. I wonder if that's more because they like bro MORE or if it's some sort of selling out....

[didi]

I wonder if that's more because they like bro MORE or if it's some sort of selling out....

Either way I'm gonna become unspeakably angry at the whole scene and think less of them as people for their decision. *Rage*

[JTMMusicuk]

auto glass repair auto glass replace

[doonedave]

so sick, cant wait for a release.

[Forum]

Hate the first day back at work after time off, so slow

[LA_Boxers]

Think I might take Friday off work, and literally do nothing the whole weekend apart from watch some DVDs, play some tunes and cotch the fuck out! Few beers, few joints. Proper jam sesh. Might also catalogue all my old vinyl and upload a list!


Geek time!

[magma]

Might need to have an argument to get me through the afternoon.

[jameshk]

Might need to have an argument to get me through the afternoon.

Fuck you, no you don't. Y U SO DUMB

[murky21]

gonna get something green/ salad based for lunch as a feeble attempt to counter the hell i put my body through this weekend

[magma]

Might need to have an argument to get me through the afternoon.

Fuck you, no you don't. Y U SO DUMB

I'LL CUT U

gonna get something green/ salad based for lunch as a feeble attempt to counter the hell i put my body through this weekend

Yeah, this.