All day long I'm miserable and sad and depressed, lethargic, but every night--ever single night after 12am, I become so freaking estactic about life and how beautiful it is and I love everything and everything is so fun and I dread going to sleep and daylight...
I've always been a night person--way back to my teenage days--I've ALWAYS come to life at night, energy wise, but my moods never did this until recently... last couple weeks I've noticed this.
It's 2:14, I know I need to get in bed, but I also know I may not be able to sleep--and besides that it just feels too exciting right now, like the world is my oyster. I could start music, or something. I don't want to--because music at night is like unworldly. Your creativity is insane. Like you're dreaming. I would be up until daybreak. And I hate being up so late that the sun comes up.
I'm rambling. I needed to express this.
Whats the reason for this??
